Clay

my son

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 20:21:32 GMT

this is a message to and for anyone who didnt know that my son is born or was born

my son name is jakobe thomas nash

he was born 11-3-06

he was 6lbsand 9.2oz

he was 20cm long and loud as hell

lol

andi congrads on ur baby

i will have pics soon for jakobe

have a nice day

myspace

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 22:57:16 GMT

ok i forgot to mention that i have myspace

there is a picture of me on that page to anyone who has it add me please

:)

myspace.com/cnash88522

STILL IN MI

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 18:45:37 GMT

well i was suppose to go to georgi today but i didnt

me and my wife to be is still together and she is preg

maannnn life is grand sometimes

i had to find out if i had any warrents out on my ass and i dont

shit man i'm good

i jus thought i update this because no one sees me online anymore

lol

DAY 2

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 18:12:17 GMT

aight i am a lil more calmer then i was last nite

i talk to rachel today and she was suppose to be meetin up with a friend of her's from school

right now i am at a state of mind that i need to have someone follow her around

i am sorry i do love her and everythin

but jus because i love her that doesnt mean i wont beat these guyz ass for fuckin with my gyrl

but the sad thing is that rachel thinks i always wanna hammer on someone

and thats not true

i am jus protectin whats mean

i think i will make another road trip there

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 02:37:55 GMT

aight i guess i am suppose to lie and say that i had a good day today

fuck naw i didnt

i felt as if i cant trust my g/f anymore

i had to find out from serveral different ppl that rachel was cheatin on me

yea i was piss i wanted to rip that guy FUCKIN THROAT OUT AND BLOW HIS GRILL DA FUCK OUT

she swore to me that she wasnt cheatin on me

i had to have my friend ced drive my ass out to where she was

man i am tired of bein played but all these chics that claim they love me

i am suppose to be leavin town for a while and i wonder if i have to look forward to her ass lyin to me again

this is y i never like any of my g/f's havin guy friends

i told this foo i'm like T.I *U DONT KNOW ME*

i'll get like ludacris and act a fool

man is there any loyal faithful female out there for me

please tell me

i cant keep puttin myself thro this shit every week and she makes it seem like i blame her for everythin and she thinks i dont love her

and it was me doin everythin in the world for her

damn

y am i in so much pain??

i love her so very much but cant pull myself to leave her

i think i deserve every heartache i get

this is a message that i am the biggest loser ever walk god green earth

i am so depress and stress and enrage that i jus wanna hurt somethin like real real bad

please i need some one to prey for me

bad week

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 18:07:13 GMT

i am havin a terrible week

i havent seen my g/f for 4 days now that sux ass

i was only able to call her and tell her how much i miss her

that wasnt good enuff for me

i havent had gas in my car prior to those 4 days i havent seen her

and to make it worst

all my good friends is poppin up M.I.A

damn i am bored off my ass

and a lil while ago i had some dude pop onto my screen name just literaly tryin to chew my ass off

i am tired of all the negativity

is there anyone out there think i'm annoyin as all hell please let me know

i already feel like shit

this will literally make my day more

i have 3 more days to get the rest of my shit out of this house b4 the deadline

i usually like the pressure

but now i am so depress i dont know what to do

bored

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 21:25:35 GMT

ok its monday and i am bored, someone please slap me with a ghetto cookie

rachel i sittin right next to me readin my journal* theres nothin sacre anymore* lol

and i have a friend that jus told me that Ms Jackson was found not guilty

what is the world commin to??

o well i need to find somethin constructive to do now

alycia saga

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 23:38:03 GMT

ok this entry is for alycia

lyc i seen that lil message u left me and thats, thats not coo

because number one if u didnt read my message right the first time i'll explain it to u for the second time

i said that i heard what u and cassie was goin off and about behind my back or somethin like that

never the less i let that go and futher more when i written that i was already pissed off at the fact that somethin dumb was goin to happen to me

now jus to let u know that i already talk to cassie a few weeks ago and put all this useless fightin between us to the rear end of us

which left me to u

i never got a chance to talk to u about nothin and if u say that u didnt do anythin then thats aight because i am over it

i jus tryin to be coo with u people because i am tired of the dumb stuff

obne more thing my dear lyc, i dont talk smack, thats the last thing i'll do.

and i dont discriminate young lady if u start wit me then i have no choice but to respond accordenly

so i am tellin u like i told cas

i am very sorry for the misunderstandin

what a great year

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 12:06:25 GMT

can anyone please tell me why in the bloody blue hell do i always wait until its doomsday b4 i decide that i really wanna write in this journal??!!!

its been a long time since i wrote in this thing and alot has happen durin that time

like for example i am on probation because of my former job

i had to do 20 hours of community service because of my former job, oh and dont let me forget to mention that i am payin a stunning $720.00 fine because of my former job

me and rachel is still together and still plan on gettin married, the only issue with us is that she cant stay pregnant like a good girl

we both been workin on and off for some temporary job site out in troy

oh yeah and my ex girlfriend keeps callin me askin for money for the former apartment that she left me hangin in

my ex girlfriend decide to call it truce on our on going soap opera so we are friends now

my best friend ced act like he cant grow a sack and stand up to his BITCHY woman

molly is havin problems of her own and we aint gonna even get me started on that, however i have mad respect for that girl for bein able to work and take care of 2 kids

i am gonna be movin again because my mom sold the house

so i have to get my hussle on and find me a new place to be

well this is my update so i'll be tryin to write in it again soon

peace

FINALLY!!!

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 04:56:16 GMT

i did it finally

GIMME A HELL YEAH

i finally got myself a job after a whole month

i'm very proud of myself

now all i gotta do is help my g/f get a job

we went to dinner tonite to celebrate it

i cant wait

i start on tuesday morning

now i can relax but it cant take it easy seein how i have alot of work that needs to be done

hell i am so happy for myselfencore

finally

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 04:24:41 GMT

ok i am finally able to post my entries without worryin about some tic tamperin with my system!!!

i've posted b4 about my girlfriend bein pregnant and how sick she been feelin?

today she look really pal like she had no strength to do anything

i think tomorrow after i take her to do her arrands i'm gonna end up takin her to the docters to figure out when she is suppose to be due or somethin i am really startin to get worried about her

and if thats not bad enuff she has to find her a new job

hell i got to find me a new job

i hope my interview goes well on friday

i need to be able to support rach and my new breed when its born

back to my journal problem i think i figured out who is screwin with it and i will report the both of them to the people who runs this thing

this is gettin really old and i am on here every night writin this stupid thing for 2 brats to be commin along screwin around with it

o well

i have other things to worry about

my girlfriend and my up commin kid

HE'S BACK!!!!!

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 19:09:38 GMT

guess who back

first off i wanna wish everyone a happy new year

second i wanna make known that yours boy clay is gonna be a daddy soon *YEEAAH!!!*

i am havin the most hectic yr

i lose my apartment and i lost my job

thats ok i am boucin back

i dont know y i started writin in this thing again

i never have anythin good to say

and cassie u fat slut i heard all about yo fat ass

and alycia u better stop spreadin shit about me

u think i dont know what the fuck u been spittin behind my back?!

fuck u and cassie put together

kasandra rewer u can ask me ur important question jus as soon as i get me a new e-mail account

i guess theres nothin else to say except se ya when i se ya

how funny

Thu, 13 Mar 2003 15:42:00 GMT

yesterday was a tremendous good day

i mean really

it was rachel's birthday and of course we took her out

we had to go later on after work and tim came up with the idea of going to gino's

by the way rachel is 21

but anyway

we watch some guy do card tricks

and unless i am seein things but me and rach couldve sworn we saw that guy float himself off the ground

that was so cool

but anyway

me and rachel ordered chicken noodle soup and a couple of whine coolers

rachel got the wild berry flavor and i got the black cherry flavor * excellent taste i mite add*

ok now rachel was on about how she wanted a cake and someone to sing her happy b-day *this is the same girl who threaten to kick me and tim asses if we mention to them ppl that it was her b-day*

so i said ok consider it done

i was crazy enuff to flag down the waiter * and i quote to the gentleman: my i need a small favor , my friend over here would like someone to bring her a cake and a nice nifty b-day song*

lol

the guy say hey pal consider it done

rachel looks at me and scream what the hell did u just do

lol

she said she was gonna kick my butt because she was just kidding

lol

tim started laughin

i am thinkin to myself * o shit!*

but she had to laugh at it herself

so yea the waiter came out with a guy and a small cake

and get this man

the dude sing happy b-day to her

then me and tim sing to her

YEA I SING!!

rachel face was red from blushin too much

i can still hear her mutterin i am gonna get u for this

so yea we left gimo's and rachel hammered me in the parking lot

lol

me and tim got her a b-day card

not gonna tell u what kind of b-day cards

lol

i dont have enuff time to tell ya so if u really wanna know jus ask me later

i need to get goin to work now

clay is BBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!

Mon, 03 Mar 2003 21:33:55 GMT

there isnt much that i can say at this point of time

all i know is i havent been online as much

well i have

but i never gotten around to postin on my journal

but with all the b.s thats been goin on and plus me workin too

how do i find the time to even be online at all

things has been so hell raising that i havent even been back to church

u know speakin of church

i dont know if i'll ever return or not

but we'll see what happens

i spent the most of my time with tim, rachel, and they kid

o yea and molly and kevin too

and speakin of which

i guess u should know that i been lookin out for them all

i mean tim and rachel was in a bad car wreck

baby lisa almost died, thank god no one was killed

i actually cried for rachel u know that

blah i am gonna skip thro all this negative crap

lets talk about last nite when i took rachel out to a movie for her b-day

yea baby we seen CRADLE TO THE GRAVE

we went to go see it at great lake crossing

met some new friends on the road

rachel couldnt kept her happy tail still

she was actually dancin to some of the music they was playin

but u know other then that had fun

ok type these damn thing too fast

it dont really make since

but thats ok i am in a rush

i should be expectin to talk to cassie more later

hmmmmmmm

well i need to bounce for now

clay be out

sorry

Thu, 24 Oct 2002 06:12:51 GMT

ok so how long has it been since i wrote in this dang thing

lol

ok maybe i can explain

ever since that me and molly grew closer i jus forget about alot of stuff

call me crazy yo

but i am willing to make sacrifices for her

the thing is that she already knows that i am diggin her yo

but she dont know how much

i guess this is what happens when i stick so close to her for about a yr and a half

i had to go to new york to see my dyin aunt

i didnt really tell no one i was goin

well i told tim and rachel

and then i told rach to tell molly

but molly never got the message until i called there from NYC

and let me tell ya when i talk to her she was very upset

i jus had to get done with my business in NY

which i did

so i found myself commin home a day early

and when i did

well lets jus say that me and molly became closer then anyone would have thought we were

i am not gonna explain what i mean by that so dont ask

i havent heard from my mom at all since she came home

i finally got off my duff and called home again

anyway

this molly thing jus wont go away

an i think i experience somethin like this b4

ok it was with cassie ok

i am not gonna play dumb

and speakin of cassie

man talk about havin a huge ego

i called her so i can talk to her or maybe go see her

and i guess its safe to say that she was bein a bit stook up

i mean i havent talk to her nor seen her in a long while

all i wanted to do was tell her where i been

but crap knowin her @$$ she prolly wouldnt give a blind crap

i think marlana and danyell r the only ones thats interested in my good health and well being

tammy acted like she had an attitude when she heard from me on a e-mail

i guess she is still pissed off about the whole jennifer thing

o well it couldve been worse

i dont know when i'll be back to church again

maybe when i am treated with the respect that i deserve

i was gonna wait for cassie to IM me

but i guess she is too good for that too

i am gonna try my hardest not to talk to molly about anythin that concern me and herself

i guess i am gonna be patient for a while longer

well i guess its bed time

so i will put this to a close til the next time

shoot

Sun, 01 Sep 2002 01:56:07 GMT

ok so yea this day has been so

ummm....

nevermind i am still tired from work

hey i did carts today

YYAAAAYYYY ME

me and jen went to meijers today b4 i went to work

i tell ya now i love this gyrl to death

she got me a couple of awesome cds and she sorta reminds me of some one

hmmm

maybe she reminds me of myself because i always doin things for people

yea so anyway enuff with the mushy stuff my day went by pretty well

i had jennifer with me all day long

even when i was at work

lol

o yeah i had to hide her from molly

lol

so yea we came back to my place and i called cassie like the dummy that i am

it totally was useless as to tho she hung up on me once and i was dumb and called her back and she was as ignorant about it so i jus said ok

i am frustrated now so i think i'll end this useless entry

o but b4 i do i have one more thing to say and i am gonna say it for the last

LASTT TIME

cassie and kristie please if u have a so call problem with me or jennifer

address it personally

THANK U!!!

..........

Sat, 24 Aug 2002 02:34:15 GMT

o my gosh

i cant believe she did that to me

i shouldnt be suprise tho

i was suppose to take cassie out tonite

but she called me and cancelled only cos she wanted to see a band instead

my and cass had friday planned out all week long and she left me in the cold

thats not rite and i dont deserve to be treated this way man i am tellin u

so i spent most the day with jennifer

not what i planned to do but i guess it was ok

it help past the time

we spent very lil time at great lakes crossing

but really i was thinkin y cant cassie for once stick to her promises ant not be so mean to me so much

it bothers me alot and she doesnt even care

she wanted me to call her later but i dont understand y

i mean i am angry about this

yea real smart of me to jus tell her to go on ahead and go

and when i told her that i can sense her smilin and sayin okies at the same time

and she wants to say i am mean

and she question me y i stay in white lake so much

at least rachel molly and tim dont go back on their word when we plan to do somethin

i am tired of written about this now

i am gonna give a huge hello to MOLLY seein how i havent seen her in a week

love ya babe

this is commin to a close now

grrr

Thu, 22 Aug 2002 15:41:59 GMT

i did it

i went to church last nite for the first time in a week

it wasnt bad either

jennifer wanted to go but when i got there to get her she wasnt even there

i hate that crap when she does it to me

o well kevin was there and he didnt wanna go cos he fears the church will collaspe on top of him

lol

kevin it not that bad really!!

o well they said they mite go wit me next time

and believe me jennifer needs it

well anyway i was embarass last nite when kevin over heard cassie bad mouthin me on the phone

she dont think i am as nice to her as paul is to jess

bs

i am takin cassie out on friday

and i pray that she dont chance her mind on me after she said that she would

i dont wanna tell rachel that cassie has somethin against her

she has enuff bull crap goin on with her this week

well speakin of rachel i better hot foot it to the job and talk to her b4 she gets off cos i dont know if she'll be home later on

i am puttin this to a close now

hello

Tue, 13 Aug 2002 20:57:49 GMT

well i am back

i am back again, but who the frick cares

u know i am tired of the critizism

week in and week out

i been chillin and hangin out in white lake for quite some time now

tim and rachel wants me to jus move on out there since i am out there all the time

i am thinkin of jus doin that, cus i cant stand to be in detroit no longer man its killin me

molly moved back with her parents and got a job

not to mention somethin else happen with her that i wont say

baby lisa has been awesome man i'll tell ya

i love that kid to death

really makes me wish i had a kid of my own

better yet i wish i had a fam of my own

hmmm.... but well thats somethin else

tim and rachel switch shifts for work which doesnt seem to be all that bad cos i feel like i am workin the nite shifts when rachel is there durin the day

i've decided to cut the nice guy crap cos it does nothin but bring me more chaos

cassie is a fine example of that

paul ask me if theres any chance of me and her gettin back together

not a chance

i feel like she spits on me and walks all over my hide

and i dont think she was really nice to rachel on the phone either but o well

hey i remember that

lil lisa tried to talk to her

o well

i didnt have the heart to tell paul that the reason y cassie dump me in the first place was cos she thinks i am not a god worthy man

she totally rip me when i told her that i need time for church to sink in

*how long do u need 20 years* she saids

and i think i figured out who been rippin on me behind my back

i dont need to hear about y i am so mean when they should know already

hmmm

maybe later on today i'll go to kevin's house and ask jennifer out

i really dont have nothin to lose

i should go now

....

Wed, 10 Jul 2002 02:40:02 GMT

y do i waste my time with females

maybe its because i jus wanna go on ahead and settle down and have a family
how ever i am havin trouble selectin a decent female

all the good ones r taken

i definately need to be with someone who i can share my bloody thoughts and feelings with and not be judge or ignored about it
i'm not desperate i'm jus tired of playin these pre-mature teenage games with half the chicks i been with
cassie is a fine example of that
she couldnt accept me whether i swore in front of her or not
and at one point she use to say she love me
and look at her now
i dont know y i still love her for
she feels nothin for me

i'll never be able to prove myself worthy at anythin at this rate

i guess i have to talk to my cousin shammon and get her thoughts

that is of course if i can ever get ahold of her

and thats another thing

i hate crushes

thank u

lol

i dont know what to do now i feel like i wasted alot of energy on one common goal

and i thought that i found someone who loves me back

but hecks no

o well tomorrow and a different day

i wanted to hang out wit cas on friday but i dont think she want to

so i will see about tim and rachel on friday and go home on saturday or sunday

darn i need to wash the juice out my pants

lil lisa decide she wanted to dump her juice all over me last nite

but at least it wasnt in public like she did tim

lol

i'ma put this to a close now

what the heck?

Sat, 22 Jun 2002 12:01:01 GMT

hi i'm clarence

and i am the least important thing rite now

yesterday was a good day

i cleaned the yard and got my hair cut

YAY!!

i went to pick up my check and talk to rachel while i was at it

funny i didnt get to talk to molly at all but its all good i know she'll be commin to the job

i talked to my cousin yesterday for the first time in a long time

let this be a lesson to u never tell ur ex that or it will be a lil conflict

cassie turns around and assaults me by askin if i had a problem with her likin bryan

to set a record str8 and i do mean str8

i dont have a problem with her likin him

cos if that was the case i would a problem with her hangin over aaron

but i have no problem with none of that

its not like she was givin a d*mn about my presence anyway

i mean cassie c'mon y would u even say that or ask me that, do try and know me better then that please

everyone should know by now that if i have a problem wit somethin i'm gonna address it front and center

anyway cassie didnt even call me to see if i would come help her

not like she would anyway

i am not gonna change though i am still gonna treat her with the respect that she aparently deserves

and i will continue to accept the abuse

but i am gonna pray on myself

i have to go now i have to work

O HELL YEA!!

Tue, 18 Jun 2002 17:09:29 GMT

what a week i am havin so far

this past weekend was jus one of those historic weekends

on saturday i had a good day

i work and flirt with a few chicks

o and I GOT TO SEE MOLLY, LORRIE, MELISSA, AND LESLEY!!!

molly is rachel sister

i dont what it is about her i like

i guess she remind me of someone

lisa has been the biggest bitch walkin the bloody planet

i wonder who she reminds me of

lol

i dont know what my deal is lately i am too laid back

i can see a total heel change within me its like i'm not takin no sh*t from no one

the only thing i am concern with is how in the world did pastor tony find out what happen between me and cassie

i'm makin it my business to find out jus how he knows and what else he found out

i'll be dang if i let this go un notice

but then by me doin all that i would have to explain myself to what made me do it

and as kristie would point out or try to think i have somethin to hide

i actually dont

and then i'm insulted by cassie when she said i dont have the guts to pull off half the stunts i claim i would do

well all i am gonna say is jus watch

i want to know where tammy got her info about me not bein in church sunday

and to my understandin its a they who told her that i wasnt goin because of cassie

tammy also found out i been swearin

o well

i decided that i am way too f*ckin nice and i jus need to start bein vile to ppl who be vile to me

my boi zeke came home the other day and crap he is like a lil brother to me man

and if anyone who understands me more then any other coward out there is him

at least he doesnt judge me for my past mistakes

i should go find own and beat hiM sh*tless for what he did to vince

but thats not my battle to fight

o and b4 i go i jus remember who i wanted to take retaluation against

i am gonna end this peace for now

?

Fri, 14 Jun 2002 05:42:31 GMT

is i true that certain things isnt my business

even after i know its about me

blah and here i was gettin ready to talk about yesterday

i think i am gonna let it all go

god is callin me to let stuff roll

i wish i knew what goes on in my mind now a days

but who cares

i am makin another new promise to myself and jus play a big role in my own life

no one else can do it for me

someone accuse me of bein melodramatic

well

i'll give this person that credit

i'ma go back to my room now and play b4 i go to bed

god bless

friday

Sat, 08 Jun 2002 16:08:05 GMT

i was suppose to been hangin out with a friend from work

but end up cancelling cos her mom couldnt watch her kid

so instead i went over julian's and hung out with them for the majority of the day

pretty great if u ask me

i watch the game with them and bryan shortly came over after i did

i was tryin my hardest not to fall asleep over there and found myself doin it any way

julian woke me up so we can go to rockets

its some food joint for those of u who is thinkin about a giant missle

anyway bryan drove i notice that much b4 i fell asleep asleep in the back seat

be warn he drives faster then me

lol

and they both had they windows down and it was a bit of cold air whackin me right in the face

how was i able to sleep thro that i dont know

lol

but yea on top of all that i didnt realize they went to blockbuster to rent a movie

so yea i had to be pretty knocked out cold

we went back to ju's place and i'm like on the couch tryin to regain consiousness

we finish watchin the game which was off the heasy

the LAKERS was killin them

after the game we was all like yep well time to watch a movie

they rented a pretty good western and evelyn made POTPIE

YES!! POTPIES YEA BABY!!

yea *ahem*

the funny thing is that while we was watchin a sence where they was showin a tiger

i was like look kitty i want one

when they showed a pretty chick i screamed out i wanted one of those too

everyone looked at me and started laughin

so yea i was wakin up with the crazybug in my system

lol

so here i am now

and i see cassie online but i wonder if she is gonna let me help her with her papers later

i'm not exactly waitin for a phone call of her askin me

i normally jus go there to help

but i think i better ask if she wants me to or not b4 i go

so yea i'll ask her later

i am goin to end this now

HOLLAAAAAAAAAA

i lost faith

Fri, 07 Jun 2002 06:56:41 GMT

i lost every hope of me and cassie gettin over this stupid ass feud we got goin on

but i guess i should leave her be

i can sense the devil pointin and laughin at me cos i lost the one person who i thought cared about me

shut up devil its not funny

i prayed and prayed and prayed

and look where it got me cassie said she will never trust me again

god is tellin me to stop beatin up on myself cos her

he knows that we both r hurtin

this is like a impact that hit me like a ton of bricks

i didnt have the heart to tell cassie what i found out and nor will i

i'm goin to for once keep my promise to myself

and hope that she one day forgive me

i am gonna send tammy a link to my journal

and show her how hard my life has been

the devil been on me like a hawk

he took away the one person that mattered to me the most and he will pay for it